I’ve had a battle with a nasty head/chest cold the last couple of days. I’m getting better.
Such times are a reminder to me of my need to be flexible, to allow for change. Life changes, my life changes. I don’t count it as a bad thing that I get so enmeshed in the work of living each day that I lose touch with my own frailty. It is somewhat necessary to forget that any moment life can rip us from our seemingly normal path and demand something else of us. Such a continuous awareness – of my frailty – would be immobilizing.
But, when sickness or injury comes, it is interesting to witness the struggle I have to allow for them – life changes.
Today my chest burns, my eyes are puffy, my nose and throat are tender, and it is too much effort to think and plan for tomorrow – as much as tomorrow may need plans. Today my reason is tainted by surges of emotions that hack away at my serenity and taunt my self-worth. Physical and emotional sicknesses seem to be dear bedfellows, with me at least.
So, I’ll rest and limit my number of decisions. Sometimes doing nothing is the best choice. I’ll sip tea, read and sleep and let the world wait – for me.
As you were… -cough, cough-
Wow, everyone I know is sick. Blair came down with exactly what you have the morning of our drive to Atlanta. He is NOT having fun. Our pet sitter is sick too.
ReplyDeleteFeel better soon! And until then, enjoy some down time and read some good books.
There a line in a RUSH song (I believe it's "Free Will," interestingly enough) that goes, "If you choose not to decide you still have made a choice."
ReplyDeleteI'm with you though, sometimes that is the best decision.
Mike
This was the perfect post for me to read today. I've been dealing with the after-effects of food poisoning and thinking the same thing - it's so hard to allow yourself to be sick when you're used to feeling healthy. It's amazing the connection between body and mind - when one is sick, the other one is too.
ReplyDeleteHere's hoping we both allow ourselves to heal (even if resting is the last thing we want to do) and get better.